Nothingtosayhere

  Something Extraordinary Has Happened That's me. Looking happy for once I am suspicious. Very sceptical. Something that I haven't really done in years is happening and I don't mind saying to you that I don't trust it one little bit.  I have opened up to people.  Ok, not in person and not, like, speaking. Still, I have opened up and shared feelings and thoughts, through this blog. It's a start isn't it and something to grow from? Well - let's not get carried away. The only growth I have actually been doing is in the beer belly department. What I did, was I shared my blog on social media and through my works social channels too. It's been something of a relief to do, even though I haven't had a lot of responses or feedback. It's out there and while people could judge, I am happy to have done it and I would be over the moon if someone said it helped in some small way.  So, why be suspicious? This feeling wont last and I will come crashing back down...

Daily struggles between getting better and resisting being better.  For every day that goes by, where I tell myself I need to snap out of it. Get the walking shoes on, actually leave the house. Be a productive member of society. For all of that... There are a million thoughts of why not. From comforting myself to downright lies. Just not for me this exercise and healthy living patter. Quite aside from the physical health benefits of getting out and exercising, which I am pretty much at a point where it's going to be medically necessary. I know, as I am sure everyone does, that mentally I will be so much better off but, as I say, I know what I am. Hypocrisy is a pretty stupid thing, regardless of the form it takes. My own particular hypocritical behaviour is only bad for me. If you asked me for any advice on fitness regimes, or weight loss, I wouldn't try to pretend I know an awful lot but I can point you at loads of resources for help with anything from changing eating habits t...